Only God has the power to show you who is God.

I am beginning to really understand what is important in my life these days. What a revelation to know who I am, who I love, to learn at the age of 25 what I enjoy doing, even now to have honest opinions, to have good friends, sober friends, people who love me, and loved me even when I couldn't love myself. As I continue in sobriety, life becomes even more precious, time with my family is more valuable. When I feel like I need more from life, I ask myself 'am I really living or am I just existing?' Today I want to live! Today, I can live without the temptation to have a drink. What a miracle that is. Something I never thought possible has happened. I am enjoying life sober! All at once, everyone in my family is healthy! I have completed the 2nd last portion of College, and I am going to my daughters' first Public School Christmas concert on Wednesday!

Life is too short to worry about petty things that won't matter tomorrow. I know now, that when ever I felt that I lost God, it was not God who was lost. It was me. Today I feel stronger than I have ever felt! Not only physically, but spiritually and emotionally too. When I wake up in the morning, I pray for courage, strength and guidance to do whatever is needed for the day. When I put my expectations on myself to do too much, or expectations on others to read my mind, or do as I say, things go down hill, of course! One of the marvelous things I am learning is that you can just start over. It doesn't matter how many times I have to start my day over, I just move past it. One day at a time, or moment at a time. God loves me and wants the best for me. He has put loving, healing people in my path, has kept me safe, and has performed more miracles in my life than I can imagine. I know God wants only the best for me. So the question I now ask myself is, "why would I want any less for myself?"